Reflecting on Two Months

Welp, I’ve officially been living with my folks for two months now. High five! Things I’ve learned over the past two months of being back in Colorado:

  • THERE IS ALWAYS KLEENEX.
    You can find it in every single room of my parent’s house (yes, even the laundry room). In case of a laundry room tissue-emergency.

  • THERE IS A LEVEL OF ACCEPTANCE.
    Acceptance that my parents will do what they do how they want to do it, no matter how little sense it makes to me at times. And I’m learning how to stop trying to change that.

  • NO RENT IS PRETTY AWESOME.
    Have I thanked my parents enough for letting me stay with them rent-free? I don’t think so. THANK YOU, PARENTS. This has allowed me put so much more money towards my debt, and I’ve already reached TWO of my debt-payoff goals:

    • Have $1K in my Emergency Savings fund. (Check!)

    • Pay off one credit card. (Boom!)

  • COMMUTING SUCKS.
    Seriously, how do people do this every day? Drive an hour to/from work in stressful angry traffic? It’s awful!! My only saving grace has been keeping up with friends on WhatsApp voice recordings and Brene Brown’s talk about The Power of Vulnerability. (If you haven’t listened to this yet, please do. She’s amazing.)

  • I AM COMING TO TERMS WITH FORGETTING STUFF.
    When I first started living 1/3 of the time at my parent’s, 1/3 of the time at Jake’s, and 1/3 of the time out of my car, I gave myself anxiety trying to remember EVERYTHING. Whether it was snacks, a change of clothes, my water bottle, my vitamins - I was losing my mind. I’m trying to get better at letting it go if I forget stuff. Keeping an emergency stash of clothes / underwear in my car helps.

  • TAKING TIME TO MYSELF IS OH-SO IMPORTANT.
    I ain’t gonna lie - this has been a big adjustment for me. I still break down in tears from time to time, and I still struggle with not having a true space of my own to retreat to. It’s interesting to realize that even as extroverty as I am (yes, that’s a word now), I still need my happy-quiet-Beth-recharge-space.

My effort at a little space: dinner in my room (with Friends, of course). Yes, I am aware of the irony.

My effort at a little space: dinner in my room (with Friends, of course). Yes, I am aware of the irony.

  • IT HAS BEEN WONDERFUL RECONNECTING WITH MY COLORADO FAMILY.
    I miss my Portland crew so, so much. I think about them every day. At the same time, it’s so wonderful to be reunited with my crew out here. My friends are my family, and they are what keeps me grounded.

  • DATING LONG DISTANCE IS DIFFERENT THAN DATING IN THE SAME CITY.
    Kind of an obvious lesson I guess, but something I’ve never tried to do before! But we are figuring it out, and I gotta say, it’s been pretty darn great. Riding bikes together has kind of been THE BEST. <3

BIKES!!!

BIKES!!!

With all the change, all the challenges (oh, did I mention I decided to start a 90-day cleanse 2-weeks ago? Yeesh), and all the adjustments into this new way of life, I’m finally starting to feel a little more settled in.

OH, AND SUMMER FINALLY DECIDED TO ARRIVE IN DENVER.

Shit yeah.